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High Octane Help
My car was out of fuel and a friend, wanting to be helpful, started to put gas in, but it was 89 grade and my car requires 93. This is a fact, not a preference. Without 93, she runs poorly, sputtering to start and jolting during the drive. At 91 she will stall, and 89 is just impossible. 89 is cheaper though, and it seemed out of line to ask for the higher grade when the fuel was being gifted to me.
I watched this happen for a few gallons, knowing full well that the gas would cause more harm to my engine than truly fuel me, but embarrassed to speak up and decline the help. Then the levity of that truth struck me and I stopped the gas pump, saying "My car can't run on 89. It needs 93."
This was a dream, of course. In reality, I would never allow 89 octane in my precious GTI. However, in dreamworld this isn't about gas at all.
There are so many ways this dream could be perceived. It's a mashup of cliches: "Quality over quantity." "Everyone is trying their best." "You can't pour from an empty cup." "Don't settle for less than you deserve."
Honestly, I'm still working through it and the many lenses the scenario can be viewed through. At first glance, it looks like I'm being offered assistance that isn't actually of service, and that I'm feeling too obligated to graciously accept the support without being particular about whether it is actually serving me. I need to exercise my power to speak up and say "No" where the answer is clear.
Maybe it's an encouragement to recharge in my classic introverted ways rather than seek external fuel, which often puts an extra load on my system. Take care of myself in the ways I know I can rather than turning to the comfort of others to cope with feelings of emptiness.
On the flipside, this dream could be a message to me to be cautious about how and where I offer my support. A reminder that if I cannot commit to the whole, high octane experience, I should find a different way to be there. A new way of saying, you can't help everyone, even if you have the best intentions.
Wow, dream interpretation can go so many ways. I suppose the point is to get me to notice what's going on here on the waking plane and encourage seeing it through a different perspective.
What's your take?
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